Friday, September 14, 2012


I still hurt. In a new way now. The body is funny. Just when you think you're feeling better, BAM!! Not. Lol
On a good note, I have a date for the first Lupus support group meeting in Columbia!! October 4th is the big day and I can't wait. I'm putting a flyer together and I'll get them out ASAP! I'm always searching for my purpose in life. I think it's helping people. I'm happiest when I'm helping others. Facilitating the support groups is such an awesome feeling for me. Knowing I'm helping someone come to grips with their illness in their own way, in their own time is rewarding. But is that it. Am I meant to do more? Well, for now this is all I can do in my condition! :0)

Friday, September 7, 2012

Being Still

It's hard being still. I feel like I should be doing something. Then I do something and I hurt! Arg! I want to scream! I'm drinking camomile tea to keep me calm. You see how that's working. I'm going to take a short stroll to remind myself of my limitations.

Wednesday, September 5, 2012

Hello There!

 We're here in SC! I like it. It's new and there is so much to see. Right now I'm not seeing much because I finally had my surgery last week. It went great and was very much needed. ( I had a hysterectomy) To be truthful the pain is not that bad. It's the fatigue and the moving slow that's hard. I work so hard to exercise and eat right so I keep that fatigue and painful joint movement to a minimum and now this is out of my control. So I feel like a hobbled horse. I was told not to exercise for 2 weeks but my body started to freeze up and hurt all over. I snuck in some yoga moves that didn't bother my incision. It helped quite a bit.

On a good note I'm back writing! It gives me time to readjust and plan my what to do  next with my life. When I first got down here I started piling things on again. Got deeper involved in my buddhist practice, tried to get the Mary Kay business moving down here, making calls to get a support group going in my new town, and get the kids situated and help my husband. What the hell was I thinking! I was out of control in no time. I let my Mary Kay business go. It was too much. I just don't have the energy for it. This time I don't feel like a failure. It's just time to move in a different direction. I was going to try to get a LFA Chapter in SC. Turns out LFA doesn't want one here and they have a valid reason, but they also are working on continuing support efforts and I will be starting a new group in Columbia as soon as I recover!! Yay! I miss it!
My buddhist practice keeps me sane. Nothing wrong with living peaceful and wanting that for the rest of humanity. As for the hubby and the kids- I'll always be here to listen and offer advice, but I don't have to solve everyones problems and most of the time they don't want me to. I say this now and in a week I'll be writing how I'm doing something different! lol In a nut shell, it's time for me to plan and relax. Enjoy being taken care of for the next few weeks.