tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-49323971953973236552024-03-13T10:53:08.890-04:00Living with LupusEvery day struggles with helpful tips and positive inspiration.madame butterflyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04883013475582520999noreply@blogger.comBlogger129125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4932397195397323655.post-29076459064539123162016-01-04T12:54:00.001-05:002016-01-04T12:54:33.733-05:00Update<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
I can't do it. Tomorrow is supposed to be my 3rd dosage. I feel like crap. Worse than crap. I'm exhausted. When I have energy it's short lived. The nausea is just starting to go away. My neck has been bothering me the last two days, so sleeping is difficult. I'm afraid to take the next dosage. </div>
madame butterflyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04883013475582520999noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4932397195397323655.post-67204724992583076152015-12-29T13:01:00.004-05:002015-12-29T13:01:40.105-05:00It's been a while<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
This year got away from me. One big blur. I started smoking cigarettes again after quitting for 18yrs. I quit again, but not without repercussions. Tobacco is a nightshade plant.Some folks with lupus are very sensitive to nightshade vegetables(plants). That didn't go over so well. Have pain in my joints ( normal), but a more intense and problematic pain in my finger that won't go away. Sounds familiar ( please not the headache thing all over again!). I started methotrexate last week. Not a fan as of yet. Needed someone to talk to. It feel like complaining when I talk to family and friends. They don't understand anyway, so what's the point. A bit groggy so going to stop here. Thanks for reading. </div>
madame butterflyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04883013475582520999noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4932397195397323655.post-52941319238234895002014-07-07T12:14:00.001-04:002014-07-07T12:14:24.135-04:00For todayEvery day is a silent struggle. I know it will get better. madame butterflyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04883013475582520999noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4932397195397323655.post-11073961453783294902013-11-19T18:00:00.001-05:002013-11-19T18:00:50.632-05:00Blood patchHad blood patch done today. Me and my little veins. He couldn't get the typical amount of blood. Wish me luck with what he got. Wasn't as bad as spinal tap. madame butterflyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04883013475582520999noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4932397195397323655.post-30027662593317390032013-11-18T17:01:00.002-05:002013-11-18T17:01:43.461-05:00Upgrade to miserable<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
This has been going on too long! I have an appointment for the blood patch tomorrow. I'm done. I'm done. I'm done. I should have never went to the neurologist looking for the answers to my brain issues. This is like one of those old family secrets that you don't go looking for the answers. You just except it for what it is and don't dig for answers. Come on you all know what I'm talking about. The why is so and so they way they are, or what happened to the blank that mom had. No one knows. Someone knows just don't go digging for the answers. LOL Hmm. Don't know if I should be laughing at that one. :0) Oh well. If I can laugh right now than let me. I'll look back at this later and say WTF was I thinking. Getting off the computer for now. My back is starting to hurt. <br />
Have an awesome evening.<br />
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Live.Love.Laugh.Enjoy!</div>
madame butterflyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04883013475582520999noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4932397195397323655.post-76590540393332249942013-11-18T08:37:00.001-05:002013-11-18T08:37:40.614-05:00Dizzy<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
Getting dizzier by the moment. That can be taken two ways! LOL Still not back up to snuff. Put in a call to my primary last night and this morning. Last night because I took a double dose of my gabapentin I'm so off. OMG I couldn't believe it. I took my dose in the living room before I went to bed. Went to the bathroom, walked in the bedroom, saw my bottle of water by the bed and took my medicine again. Didn't realize it until I got in the bed and about 15 min later I started feeling the room spin. Call the ER who instructed me to call my on call doc. Instead of taking 900mg I took 1800mg. As I read this, I'm thinking, I'm a mess. But I don't like to think I'm this much of a mess. Any who, put in a call to primary this morning to find out what I should do about my reaction to the spinal tap. For various reasons I'm not comfortable with my neurologists office. Ran my reasons by a friend and had her speak to the nurse with me on the phone ( she uses the office) and she agrees with me. I'm not crazy. Shit isn't right in that office. So now I'm getting rid of yet another neurologist. What is this number 4? Well I'm still sitting up. Still dizzy, but not nauseas. Is that a good sign of getting better or I still need the blood patch? Time to get some answers.<br />
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Live.Laugh.Love.Enjoy!</div>
madame butterflyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04883013475582520999noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4932397195397323655.post-34316059717742095112013-11-17T07:06:00.001-05:002013-11-17T07:06:43.671-05:00New Day<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
That blood patch is looking pretty good to me right now! LOL I've been doing some searching online and it seems that this is the solution to my problem. More needles. I'm done with docs. I shouldn't say that, but I felt better before. I decided it was time to find a neurologist because I noticed I was a bit more spacey than usual. Background - I'm eating meat again! Is there truly a connection or do I just want there to be! I never full out gave up meat/products, but I had cut down drastically to maybe 4 items month. Not a whole meal, but maybe a slice of cheese one week, butter on toast another, things like that. Now it's full out eating everything. So I started feeling a bit weird- that's the only way I can describe it and I knew needed to have a neurologist anyway. I'm on SSD and I'd be up for review eventually. Who has headaches everyday for 6 years and not has a neurologist? Me! This is why people! Crap like this happens to me! I'm supposed to be this positive voice aren't I. Just take this as a lesson that you're not alone. I know this is happening to someone else out there. You have a kindred spirit.:0) We will get through this, with a small amount of bitching. It's healthy. I'm at the bargaining stage, just get me through this and I'll exercise and eat healthy! LOL For those who know me I'm in real pain because I never offer exercise as an exchange! I just want to feel better. Is that to much to ask? And now here comes the water works. What did I do that was so awful in another life, because I'm perfect in this one! LOL I can always make myself laugh! I'm done for now. <br />
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Live.Laugh.Love.Enjoy!<br />
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madame butterflyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04883013475582520999noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4932397195397323655.post-8945257577701354062013-11-16T08:25:00.001-05:002013-11-16T08:25:33.921-05:00Just Pain<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
Am I a masochist? I was perfectly ok with the pain level I was at and I had to up the ante. (is that the right word?) This spinal tap has kicked my ass. I called and spoke with the nurse. She thinks there's a leak and that's why I'm still in so much pain when I sit up. She wanted to schedule me for a blood patch. WTF Don't like how that one sounds. She explained it to me and I still don't like it. For those who don't know - it's when they take some of your own blood and inject it into the puncture to cause clotting and close the puncture. Not going to happen. Not comfortable with it. <br />
I was leaning towards having the Botox treatment for my headaches. At this juncture, I'm going to pass. More needles sticking into my body. No thanks. I'm leaving well enough alone. Just get me back to where I was before I walked into his office and I'll be happy! <br />
I was able to see my results online and what I can see came back normal. Yay!! They still don't know what's wrong with me! LOL Damned if you do, damned if you don't. I have lupus. For reasons beyond me some docs don't want to believe the problems with my brain are from lupus, yet they have no other answers. And I'm left with no answers, no closure, no questions anymore ( because I never get answers!). Just pain. Enjoy the day for me!<br />
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Live.Love.Laugh.Enjoy<br />
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madame butterflyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04883013475582520999noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4932397195397323655.post-79361148728346541572013-11-15T08:46:00.000-05:002013-11-15T08:46:11.217-05:00Nothing good to watch<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
Hello World!<br />
I had a spinal tap on Tuesday and I still feel like crap. Losing confidence in my new neurologist. I can't catch a break with those! Any way. I've been watching TV because what else can you do while lying on your back? -Don't answer that one! LOL There are very few positive things on to watch. I'm watching Bang for Your Buck. I really liked that show. As I'm watching they are totally ripping these peoples' homes apart. I think their homes are beautiful. As I flick through the channels I see a lot of infomercials. I can't take it. <br />
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madame butterflyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04883013475582520999noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4932397195397323655.post-1422036551312029292013-05-05T16:31:00.001-04:002013-05-05T16:31:37.074-04:00lupus WalkHe lupus walk in West Hartford his year was amazing. I got a chance to see old friends and meet some new ones. I wish I had taken photos to share.<br />
I'm back facilitating support groups. The New haven one is opening back up this month. And we are doing a one time group on World lupus Day in New London! So happy to be back home in CT. madame butterflyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04883013475582520999noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4932397195397323655.post-76194455365078697302013-04-07T17:44:00.001-04:002013-04-07T17:44:12.716-04:00I'm back!Well I'm back in CT with the whole family. I'm actually thrilled to be back. You don't realize how good things are until you live somewhere else. CT isn't so bad. SC is a beautiful place to visit with very charming people. I look forward to visiting next year!<br />
I drove 15 hrs straight and I'm paying for it. I'm in PT and on Valium. What the f#^*!<br />
This too shall pass. Good to be home! Which is under construction due to a broken pipe over the winter!<br />
Live.Love.Laugh.Enjoy!<br />
madame butterflyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04883013475582520999noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4932397195397323655.post-45057069583263163262012-12-25T16:47:00.001-05:002012-12-25T16:47:40.427-05:00Merry Christmas!!Happy Holidays! It's been awhile. Things are still unsettled. Everyone is trying to figure out.... things. For now my day is quiet and peaceful. My husband and I are enjoying each others company. The kids are giving me a break. This is nice. I'm going to live in the moment! <br />
Live.Love.Laugh.Enjoy!!!madame butterflyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04883013475582520999noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4932397195397323655.post-91936175091203211652012-12-03T06:22:00.000-05:002012-12-03T06:27:39.938-05:00What to do <div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
My second to oldest child moved back home troubled. He had been living in the streets (not necessarily on the streets) and been exposed to a lot. He called me when he was mentally and physically tired and had finally had enough. On the street thousands of miles away with no where to go. Of course I said come home. I'm not that heartless. I tried to find somewhere for him to go first. But it's not that easy. You see, my son is a transgender.<br />
He hasn't had an operation or started hormones, but he was trying to live as a woman. It hurts my husband to even think of his son as a woman. (that's all I'm going to say about that one for now). I was devastated when he first told me. My world felt like it was coming to an end. Like my son was dying. Intellectually I know my son is still alive. He would just be a she. But as a mom, my heart still bleeds. I've gone to a transgender support group to get some of my questions answered. The main one, "why"? And I learned so much more. Maybe I was more open to hear because these women weren't my baby. The main thing I got from the meeting was how unloved and alone they felt in the beginning by their family. At such a crucial part of their lives when things were turned upside down there was no family. I learned that the suicide rate for kids going through this is 55%! I love my child. I never want him to feel that way. So I had him come home. There are rules. He has to see a councilor. Not because I'm trying to change him, but I want him to be safe. <br />
Another thing I learned from my new friends was it takes time to accept. I have every right to feel the way I do. It's all a process. I would be seeing the councilor too, but financially it's not possible. It's more important for him to see her than me so I'll continue to go to the group meetings. ( for once I'm not the facilitator! lol) And I have you guys. I'm surprised I haven't landed in the hospital with all the stress.<br />
He learned some other unsavory things on the streets when I lived up north that I said I would never put up with again while he was living in my house. Meeting people on the internet is one. How do I trust him? I can't keep him locked in the house forever. He's testing me I think. He went outside to smoke a cigarette for 3hrs. He had a journal with him and he said he was sitting in a quiet spot in the complex and was writing and talking on the phone. I didn't go out looking for him. I called and got the voice mail. I called a second time and that's when I got the story. I don't want to have to follow him all over the place. He's 22 and should be able to go out. But I don't want the same behavior as before, just a new place. We talked about this before the 'cigarette break'. I have a habit of blowing things out of proportion.(so they lead me to believe). I really don't think I do though. I think I'm right most times and years later they'll admit it, because that's what teenagers do. Hey, I was one once. I'm going to stop here, before this turns into a book. (one day it possible will- would you buy?!lol) For now I hope you all enjoy your day. I'll be back soon!<br />
Live.Love.Laugh.Enjoy<br />
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madame butterflyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04883013475582520999noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4932397195397323655.post-37300733698142137952012-11-29T06:11:00.000-05:002012-11-29T06:11:06.975-05:00Change<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
The internet. The world is changing. People put all their business on the internet for the world to see. Myself included. I just wrote a whole post and deleted it because I felt I crossed the line. I'll eventually find a way to write it without feeling like I've bared someone else's dirty laundry for the world to see. Sounds juicy, right. It's not pretty, but it's life. People- your children are in pain and they need guidance. When you feel like you've had enough and you have nothing to give because it's falling on deaf ears, you have to give more. The world has become so small and all of it's crap is so accessible. You have to find a way to show them that the world has so many beautiful things to offer. It's all there waiting to be explored. But you have to go get it. You won't find it on the internet. You have to physically move towards it. For those of us with Lupus, we now have to find a way to give and be healthy. Don't get stressed to the point that we get sick. Is this laughable or what? I'm taking you all with me on my journey so that I have an outlet and hopefully can continue to see the beauty in all situations. </div>
madame butterflyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04883013475582520999noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4932397195397323655.post-87483117697617356582012-10-31T16:19:00.004-04:002012-10-31T16:19:57.595-04:00Being true to myself<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
I've been hearing that a lot lately. Be true to yourself. Do things that resonate with you. I don't know what feels right outside of my marriage and spiritual beliefs. Those two things are aligned. I know there's more for me. I just don't know what. I get so frustrated. I shouldn't be frustrated. My business is pretty much at a stand still down here. I know it can work because I see it work for others, It just isn't happening for me. I tried to start a Lupus support group meeting down here and even that is hard. I feel like I'm getting no where. I haven't found anyone to post flyers for me.( I put an elastic band on my wrist to snap every time I complain, whine, or nag. Does this count?lol) So, I'm taking it to social media! I have to figure out how to set up a facebook page. I know things aren't easy. I don't want easy. I like a challenge. I don't want it to feel hopeless. I need to feel like I'm making a difference and I don't anymore. (again outside of my family).<br />
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My kids are making things work on their own. Which is fantastic! This is what I've always wanted. We talk. We have great conversations and I don't need nor do they want me to solve their issues. I'm finally okay with that. I still have my moments, but I'm okay when they don't follow my advice.<br />
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My husband and I haven't gone away together in months. But we moved to a new state and he just got a job that he's happy with, so that will change soon. We have gotten so much closer since we moved.<br />
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So now everyone has their own stuff to do and I feel frustrated. I think it started after my surgery. Being unable to get around put me in a funk. I'm not as active as I before which is to be expect. Now it's been 8 weeks. I should be going back to yoga, my walks and what. I had so much activity going on before. I had taken my business further than I ever did. I had a huge move I was preparing for. I had to get ready for a major surgery ( I call a hysterectomy a major surgery). Now it's all done. I'm not cut out to be Betty Homemaker. I keep trying to make my business work and it's like an itchy sweater that you got as a gift that looks fabulous on you, but doesn't feel good and you don't want to hurt the feelings of the person that gave it to you so you keep wearing it. You try to find to make it more comfortable, but it just doesn't feel right. Of course it's not going to work because it's not me. But what the hell is. <br />
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I know I can't just sit here and be the sick lupus patient. I hurt. When I eat the things that are true to who I am I feel better. Figured that one out. What's next. Headaches still an issue. Going to see a new neurologist in December. Memory still iffy. I'm getting older. (never thought I'd admit that!) I want to be able to enjoy this new freedom I have and I can't. I should be happy I have all this free time. I can do what ever I want. I just don't know what. Don't get me wrong. I'm not sad and unhappy and mopey. I'm not comfortable in my skin. I hear you want to be a bit uncomfortable because then your growing. What am I supposed to learn?<br />
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Live. Laugh.Love.Enjoy!</div>
madame butterflyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04883013475582520999noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4932397195397323655.post-11661073626238213582012-09-14T16:23:00.001-04:002012-09-14T16:23:22.453-04:00Update!I still hurt. In a new way now. The body is funny. Just when you think you're feeling better, BAM!! Not. Lol<br />
On a good note, I have a date for the first Lupus support group meeting in Columbia!! October 4th is the big day and I can't wait. I'm putting a flyer together and I'll get them out ASAP! I'm always searching for my purpose in life. I think it's helping people. I'm happiest when I'm helping others. Facilitating the support groups is such an awesome feeling for me. Knowing I'm helping someone come to grips with their illness in their own way, in their own time is rewarding. But is that it. Am I meant to do more? Well, for now this is all I can do in my condition! :0) madame butterflyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04883013475582520999noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4932397195397323655.post-87077130779047415262012-09-07T11:19:00.001-04:002012-09-07T11:19:43.891-04:00Being StillIt's hard being still. I feel like I should be doing something. Then I do something and I hurt! Arg! I want to scream! I'm drinking camomile tea to keep me calm. You see how that's working. I'm going to take a short stroll to remind myself of my limitations. madame butterflyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04883013475582520999noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4932397195397323655.post-45605777649400955932012-09-05T08:47:00.001-04:002012-09-05T08:47:53.990-04:00Hello There!<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
We're here in SC! I like it. It's new and there is so much to see. Right now I'm not seeing much because I finally had my surgery last week. It went great and was very much needed. ( I had a hysterectomy) To be truthful the pain is not that bad. It's the fatigue and the moving slow that's hard. I work so hard to exercise and eat right so I keep that fatigue and painful joint movement to a minimum and now this is out of my control. So I feel like a hobbled horse. I was told not to exercise for 2 weeks but my body started to freeze up and hurt all over. I snuck in some yoga moves that didn't bother my incision. It helped quite a bit. <br />
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On a good note I'm back writing! It gives me time to readjust and plan my what to do next with my life. When I first got down here I started piling things on again. Got deeper involved in my buddhist practice, tried to get the Mary Kay business moving down here, making calls to get a support group going in my new town, and get the kids situated and help my husband. What the hell was I thinking! I was out of control in no time. I let my Mary Kay business go. It was too much. I just don't have the energy for it. This time I don't feel like a failure. It's just time to move in a different direction. I was going to try to get a LFA Chapter in SC. Turns out LFA doesn't want one here and they have a valid reason, but they also are working on continuing support efforts and I will be starting a new group in Columbia as soon as I recover!! Yay! I miss it!<br />
My buddhist practice keeps me sane. Nothing wrong with living peaceful and wanting that for the rest of humanity. As for the hubby and the kids- I'll always be here to listen and offer advice, but I don't have to solve everyones problems and most of the time they don't want me to. I say this now and in a week I'll be writing how I'm doing something different! lol In a nut shell, it's time for me to plan and relax. Enjoy being taken care of for the next few weeks. <br />
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madame butterflyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04883013475582520999noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4932397195397323655.post-81178844283472975132012-06-06T16:04:00.001-04:002012-06-06T16:04:06.026-04:00Back homeThat wasn't so bad. I have to do it again in two weeks. I'm tired. Sitting there for 6 hours I guess I should be.madame butterflyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04883013475582520999noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4932397195397323655.post-27872708044592588152012-06-06T11:41:00.000-04:002012-06-06T11:41:23.588-04:00Still here2 1/2 hours to go. It's going well. I'm hungry. And bored. Hubby went to sleep. Poor thing worked last night. Oh well, more TV.madame butterflyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04883013475582520999noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4932397195397323655.post-91215599138825717492012-06-06T09:58:00.001-04:002012-06-06T09:58:21.693-04:00HereWell I'm here. We haven't started yet. It's an iron infusion. Yay! Step 1 - know the name of the procedure you're having. I will be here for 5 hours. Are you kidding me?! I didn't bring enough reading material for this. I just old my husband I need an iPad if I keep having these things done. he laughed. I'm not. They're here with the test batch.madame butterflyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04883013475582520999noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4932397195397323655.post-92002500631766525762012-06-06T08:25:00.001-04:002012-06-06T08:25:21.518-04:00Hmm<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
Going in for my iron transfusion/infusion. </div>madame butterflyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04883013475582520999noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4932397195397323655.post-39114926919682912542012-05-23T21:06:00.001-04:002012-05-23T21:06:37.967-04:00Tired<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
Still trying to get energy. Where do you get it from? I'm so tired I can barely lift my arms. All of a sudden. Not sleepy, I took a nap earlier. Oh well. Don't try to make sense of the unexplainable. <br />
Goodnight!<br />
Live.Love.Laugh.Enjoy!</div>madame butterflyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04883013475582520999noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4932397195397323655.post-66947445386383860992012-05-21T09:41:00.000-04:002012-05-21T09:41:04.233-04:00Regrouping<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
Glad I had the weekend to think things through and get more info. I've decided to wait until I'm settled in SC and have my surgery there. It's too much to try to do it now. My son is graduating from high school and I want to be there. Plus I have a ton of packing and people I want to see before I leave. And get this! I believe I wrote about my hemorrhoid surgery last year. Well with all the fiber I was taking for a cleanse ( don't ask me why I do these things!) and iron I'm taking, they're back! I can't, but I can believe it! All that pain getting them removed! What are you gonna do! Suck it up and move on sister! I'm watching Will and Grace, can you tell! lol <br />
Had a nice weekend all and all. Went to a few tag sales. Just to get some air, not to buy. Actually I did pick up a few things. I did get rid of some of my stuff, so I don't feel like I'm collecting more stuff. I need help in sooo many areas! I had my first battle with the sun this season. I was wiped out and in a bit of pain. Had to lay down both days. Not the usually drama associated with it, because it's expected now. No sunscreen no hat. I know that's a no no. I went out and bought a cute hat in Kohls on Sunday! Have to pick some sunscreen. I lost a brand new bottle when I was in SC a few weeks ago.That's all for now! Have an awesome, awesome day!!<br />
Live.Love.Laugh.Enjoy!</div>madame butterflyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04883013475582520999noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4932397195397323655.post-12781489994251692522012-05-17T10:44:00.003-04:002012-05-17T11:04:15.653-04:00Every day is a challenge<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
I started writing yesterday for a reason. Now I'm sitting here in tears. It doesn't look like they're going to be able to schedule my surgery for another two weeks. That only leaves me with 3 weeks to recover before I leave. I may be able to squeeze a couple of days, but I don't know if it's enough time. I'm thinking of having the surgery in SC. I don't want to jump the gun, but I also want a plan B. I'm so agravated. I set me off was that the woman scheduling my surgery blamed it on not having my blood work results as of this morning. I told her my rheumatologist that I saw yesterday had them so why didn't she and her office ordered them. I just want to scream. <br />
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Just went for a walk....to Dunkin' Donuts!!! Sometimes all you need is a bit of sugar! It will all work out. </div>madame butterflyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04883013475582520999noreply@blogger.com0