Looong time!

Just when I think I have it under control, bam! I think I started a blog out like this before. Messed up on my meds and ended up in bed for a few days. I like to forget I have lupus. No one treats me like I have it. I don't look like I have it. My doctors  - well, we all know how that goes. I've been feeling bad for everyone these last few months. I should be doing more to help my family. My husband works to hard. I should be doing more for my kids. The list went on and on and on! I'm feeling better. I feel so good sometimes I forget it's because I've found a balance. I was getting ready to embark on a huge mistake that would have set me back to where I was 3 years ago. That's when I messed up my medicine ( hanging out with the girls I worked with and forgot to take my meds). My stress level started to escalate. It just didn't feel good. I have stress in my life. I manage to keep it to a tolerable level. My life is working for me now. I actually lost my long-term disablility because I'm managing so well. Can you believe it! Because I don't call my doctors twice a day to tell them of the pain I'm in (they don't do much if anything about the pain other than what I'm already on), I wear makeup and take care of my skin so I don't look like the living dead, I stopped seeing my therapist because I wouldn't afford her, and I try to alway have a sunny disposition- I'm fine! I'm no longer sick according to them. They haven't fixed a thing! Just had to take a deep breath. I have to keep moving forward. Thanks for listening.
Live.Love.Laugh.Enjoy!

Second Home

Back in the Berkshires. This time we took the youngest two kids. They didn't want to come. Most teens hate traveling with their parents, so I wasn't offended. Once they got here they were ok. At some points I think they were actually enjoying themselves. We went to the summit of Mt Greylock, the highest peak in MA. We loved it. We literally drove through clouds! I'll post pics when I get home.
Coming up here was good. I've been feeling like my life is at a standstill. I have no goals. No new challenges. I feel empty or incomplete. Coming here made me forget until I started writing! :)
I had minor surgery, so I was confined to the house for a bit. That always drives me crazy. Maybe that was it.
Oh well. Time to perk up and enjoy the rest of my weekend.
Live.Love.Laugh.Enjoy!

Anime Boston!

Sitting in the food court with Devin. It's only 11:22am and I'm exhausted. Walked around the mall for about an hour now and ready to flop.

Post #100!!!

I am so tired and I hurt. Took a vinyasa yoga class this morning. I was so proud of myself because I completed the class. I had to sit on the floor for about 10 minutes before I could roll up my mat. Sit another 5 in the lobby to put my shoes on and gear up to go to the car. I had an appointment after that and crashed as soon as I got home. Right now I'm so tired I can't think straight. This is all good right? Lol let's see how long it takes to bounce back. I'm in bed trying to get the strength to take my clothes off. I ordered out (delivery) and ate in bed. Not good, but beats starving. I'm a work in progress!:) time to drag myself out of bed and at the very least get out of these clothes and go back to bed. Goodnight.
Live.Love.Laugh.Enjoy!

Better than I rembered!

Yesterday at Lena's was divine! The butter croissant, the fluffy eggs and the salty tartness of the cheddar cheese.hmmmm I'm in love! As you see the hubby was being good with the fruit salad. That was also delicious. Fresh and sweet - I ate some of his food too! I'm no worse than I was. Still felt crappy last night. Relaxed at home the rest of the day. Today feel somewhat better. I won't do much though.
Enjoy the day!

Lena's Cafe & Confections
873 Whalley Ave
new haven

Yumm!

Feel like crap. It's okay. Had a great couple of days. Had a nice night out. Dinner at Wendy's. Pain started towards the end of the night.
This was supposed to be about where I am now! Sitting at Lena's in New Haven waiting for a table. I think I'm going to have a spinach omelet. Yes cheese and eggs! I'm so excited.
What happened. I loaned out my book. Eggs aren't hurting the animals. I can make the argument against that statement. I choose not to. Too hard being a vegan. I will cut down my consumption and be more mindful of where it comes from. For now I will enjoy my meal.
Keep you posted.
Live.Love.Laugh.Enjoy!

Beautiful Day

I'm in the Berkshires! The air is so crisp and clean. So refreshing! Dined at a fabulous restauraunt last night, Brûlées. Delicious food, great atmosphere, and they were open past 10pm- huge for this area! Good job Ken!!!
Feeling great this morning. I always appreciate feeling good after a few days of feeling bad. Indulged in too many fatty foods lately. I have to get back in track. I want to start going to yoga classes again. I get more out classes vs dvd's. Don't get me wrong, DVD's are great if you can't get to a class, but it's not the same.
While talking to a new friend yesterday I was encouraged to write more. Expand beyond the blog. Something to think about.
I'm sitting on the patio, listening to the rushing water, looking at all the evergreen. It's beautiful, but cold! Going back inside! lol One more look. One more inhale. Now I need a cup of tea! And my meds! Have an awesome day!
Live.Love.Laugh.Enjoy!

Almost ready for spring!

Veganism is agreeing with me! My joint pain this winter has almost been nonexistent. I'm down to 184lbs (I'll tell now that I'm under 200lbs!). The headaches are still there daily, but less episodes of excruciating days in bed. And I'm down to 5mg of prednisone, yeah baby!
Even though I still have issues with Raynaud's I'm not ready to give up winter. There's something about winter and food. Roasted root vegetables are my love right now. It wouldn't feel the same in warmer weather. I've been making a vegetable medley at least once a week. Here's the recipe:
1 yam or sweet potato ( scrubbed with skin on) large dice
1/2 butternut squash ( peeled with large dice)
1 container of brussel sprouts ( washed, cut in half)
1 onion ( diced)
1 potato ( peeled and diced)
1 parsnip (peeled and cut in chunks)
1 carrot ( peeled and cut in chunks)
1 green pepper ( diced)
1/4 tsp dried rosemary
1/4 tsp dried thyme
1/8 tsp dried sage
2 tbs olive oil
I hope that's everything, you know I always forget something! You can really put what ever you want.
Cut vegetables all about the same size so that they cook evenly and place in large baking dish. Sprinkle herbs and toss with olive oil. Bake at 400 for about 45 min. Tossing every 15 min so that it doesn't burn. Done when all vegetables are fork tender.
I hope you enjoy!
I've also been drinking more water. I found this really cool water bottle by Rubbermaid. I love the spout. Has a large opening and a leak proof cap. Love it!!! I'm so bad a drinking water. I find this bottle very convenient.







Reading this great book on buddhism. Very insiteful. Talks about looking to yourself for the reasons why your life is the way it is and how to have lasting happiness. Lasting being the key word.

That's it for now.
Live.Love.Laugh.Enjoy!

Hello!

I'm still a vegan! I'm shocked. I'm doing so well with it, why wouldn't I want to continue. My prednisone is down. I'm still losing weight. I feel awesome - when I don't overdo it. Life is good! I've rekindled my Mary Kay business. It's going slow, but it's at a pace I can handle.
I'm more social since I last wrote. Gone to dinner parties. Hosted a small get together at my house for an old friends birthday. Going out more.
Managing my meds okay. I still forget from time to time. I still pay for forgetting from time to time!
Overall I'm doing good!
Live.Love.Laugh.Enjoy!