Sunday, February 28, 2010

Time for me

I'm taking a week off. I know. I'm not working. I still need time off. I've committed myself to so much, I feel like I'm constantly doing something. It's too much and I'm not enjoying some of it. Time to regroup. See if I'm just getting overwhelmed and confused or if I truly am not enjoying some of the things I'm doing. A week of just me time. The kids are back in school ( my oldest son went back to college in Miami!) and I have the house to myself during the day. No lupus. Just enjoying me. Now I'll have time to write and keep up with my blog ;)
Enjoy!

Thursday, February 25, 2010

Cranky

It's that time of the month and I'm so cranky. Feeling down right mean. I know boosting my protein intake helps with PMS. Sometimes I like the freedom of being mean. Today it's taking up too much energy and I'm exhausted at 8:07am. Time for peanutbutter and banana on a rice cake and a warm cup of tea!
Enjoy your day!

Tuesday, February 23, 2010

Feeling Fabulous!

I had to get a cortisone shot on Friday.  I was having a lot of pain in my hip and having a hard time walking. This was my first shot. It didn't work right away like I had heard it would so I was nervous. But the next day- yeah baby. I was up and ready to go. I moved around so much that I had forgotten about all the other aches and pains and the fatigue. It all came back but there was not crash, I just had to slow down.

My thyroid test came back normal so the hair loss is not due to the thyroid. Not surprised. I'm O.K . with the hair. I didn't fall in love with the dreads until the second year so I just have to wait it out.

I'm tired. I feel like I have so much on my plate. I put it there. I'm confused about what to do. I'm handling it all so far. I guess I still feel like I have to do something. I can't just be. I have to get involved and with me that generally means take charge. I'm not a delegator, I'm a worker bee so I always have to do everything. I use to like it that way. Is that a controll issue?:) Now it doesn't sit so well.

What happened to feeling fabulous?! I do feel fabulous. I'm mentally drained.

Thursday, February 11, 2010

How could I have forgotten!

My hair started falling out again. I'm putting my dreads back in ( hairstyle where you don't comb your hair). I actually loved my dreads. I cut them out about a year ago because I thought the heaviness was contributing to my headaches. They weren't and of course it was too late at that point. I figured I'd give it a go with new hairstyles. Well in december my hair started coming out and by January I was getting bald spots. Luckily my hair is thick so it isn't noticable yet so I'm hoping by putting the dreads in now I can stop the hair from falling out. I had dreads for 3 years and my hair didn't fall out in the entire 3 years. I'll keep you posted about that too.
I'm not going to go into the causes because we all know with Lupus it can be many things. I'm going to focus on a solution and later I'll worry about the rest.
Have an awesome day! Live Love Laugh!

It's been awhile!

I've been meaning to write for some time now. Life gets in the way sometimes.
I find myself in the fight mode again and it's exhausting and unnecessary. I recently signed on to something that I'm not sure if I believe in. I need to gather facts and make a decision. I don't want to fight for something that's never going to happen. Does this make any sense? Probably not. What I need to remember is I don't have to do or be any place that doesn't feel right. I've been listening to my body for awhile now and it works for me. I can't stop now. It's okay if I'm not a fit with this group. Some of our ideas are the same and the ones that aren't I can do my own thing. I guess it doesn't have to be all or nothing. Writing is always good for me. I seem to work it out on paper or shall I say on computer. If this has helped anyone else I'm happy and thank you for listening to me ramble. :)

On to other things. I've been feeling fabulous with the veges and grains! I do have to admit I have a weakness for fried chicken. I love the smell, the look, the taste, but not how it feels after it enters the system. Every other month I break down and have a taste. I'm in heaven for all of 3 minutes. Then I want to throw up and I have wicked heartburn.

I made these awesome gluten free almond butter chocolate chip cookies yesterday. I got the recipe from Clean Eating Magazine. It's not on the website or at least I couldn't find it http://www.cleaneatingmag.com/ but if you're interested it's in the latest issue. If you like chocolate your going to love theses.

I'm planning on fasting this weekend to cleanse the body. I tried it once.  I made it a 1/2 day. I can't remember if I felt better. I probable didn't.We'll see what happens. I'll keep you posted!