Friday, April 30, 2010

Having a Plan

Part of living with lupus is having a daily plan. I've gotten away from this. Writing down what it is I want to accomplish for the day. Today I have all these ideas of 'what I'm going to do today. I started by taking the kids to school, watering my garden, washing the dishes( my lovely dishwasher is leaking) and sweeping the kitchen floor. I'm pooped. I still want to plant more things in the yard, plant my mint in cups, go to home depot with the hubby and get fencing to complete the backyard, have him cut down a few things, and begin to open the pool, along with finish the laundry, mop the kitchen floor,  clean the bathroom, the list goes on. What am I, crazy!!! I know I can't get all of that done. I'm amazed I got done what I did so far. Oh and I still have to fit squats and my walk in there somewhere. I desperately need a list!!! I usually write down my list with four columns. Tasks, errands, calls, and groceries. Some of the things on the list get delegated to someone else and I pick about 3 of them for me to accomplish. The rest wait until tomorrow. It works, until I lose the list. :) I'm not so wiped out and I don't have all these ideas swirling around in my head. I'm sitting here drained. But this is my life. I accept that. I haven't eaten breakfast yet, or taken my medicine. Hmm, I'll dig up energy from somewhere to get out of this chair. While I'm here I'll write my list. It's going to be gorgeous in Connecticut!
Live. Love. Laugh. Enjoy!

Thursday, April 29, 2010


Good morning. I sit here with my pellet stove on and a warm cup of nettle tea and all is right in the world. For the last two weeks I've been on a meat frenzy. Yesterday the hubby and I drove 72miles for a burger. There is no Sonic Drive In in Connecticut, so we crossed over the border into New York state. It was worth it! I am  so bad. lol I was so stuffed afterwards. The kind of stuffed that if we hit a bump, it was all coming back out. I vowed that all animals were safe from me from here on out! I am dusting myself off and starting again because I know I feel better when I don't eat meat.
I've been exercising too. I went to the docs last week and she wants me to loose 10 lbs in 3 months. Doesn't sound hard, right? I've been trying to do that for over a year. It's time to do things differently. A friend I met that lives in Colorado, told me over two years ago to eliminate sugar and salt from my diet. It would make me feel better. I thought, oh no, I've given up enough I'm not giving up that too! It's time. I caught a glimpse of myself last night without clothing and my immediate thought was I look like a walrus. Then I thought a beautiful walrus. lol But a walrus. What's wrong with a walrus? Someone has to love walruses. Well I don't want to see a walrus when I look in the mirror. Don't get me wrong. I love me. I love all animals - remember they are safe from me. ;) But my body needs some work. I'm going to do it at a pace that won't land me in bed but still see results. I've started with 10 minutes of squats last week. Not easy for me, but I did it. This week it's 120 minutes of yoga along with the 10 min. I usually walk 2 miles about 4-5 days a week. It's another process. It's going to take time. Not going to happen over night. I'm reminding myself of this, because I always want immediate results. I'll keep you posted. I'm ready to change my picture.
Live. Love. Laugh. Enjoy!

Wednesday, April 28, 2010

It Cold

It's cold. I have a cold and my karma is off. I feel very off balanced. My son is driving me crazy. Kids at 14 just don't get it. He keeps saying I'm harping on the negative and I know that's just because I put him on punishment. I've tried the positive reinforcement. The level of disrespect was getting out of control so I had to let him know who still runs the show. But do I really. It's all about choices. His choices. Right now he's making a few wrong ones, but it's still his decision. I still have rules in my house that have to be followed. They haven't changed for the three other children and they are just fine. They'll probably all end up in therapy and it'll be my fault. :) But the rules remain in place. He's a sweet kid. I don't know. It's hard as a parent to step back. I know at this age it begins the process of letting them become their own person. I've given him enough tools that he is a good person. ( My husband helped out too!) It's all about me people!!! At least now I'm able to laugh. Too serious this morning. I have to get something warm in me and turn on my pellet stove. It's so sunny out I don't want to turn it on. My fingers are starting to turn blue. There it's on. How simple was that. I make things much harder than they need to be. Keep life simple. Live free. Maybe I should abandon rules and restrictions. Do they hinder us? Do they cloud our judgment? If we go on instinct we would always make the right decisions for us. Something to think about.
For today Live. Love. Laugh. Enjoy!

Tuesday, April 27, 2010

New Blog!

Hello! I started a new blog! It can't always be about me!! This is something for us with Lupus. Check it out - There is a link on the right. I'll still be writing in this one also.
Hope to see you there!

Monday, April 19, 2010


Today is an amazing day! It's my grandbaby's birthday! Happy Birthday Maddie!!! Love you!
It's gorgeous outside, sunny and crisp! Two favorite things for lupus people. ;) I'm going for a walk today, combined with a little jogging. Yes, I am doing it people!

Last week I went on a meat frenzy. I had pork roast on Sunday, Popeyes fried chicken at least twice, and a double cheeseburger and a half ( not on the same day). All week I was so drained. I had some stressful friend issues going on, but couldn't believe my body was reacting to that in such a severe way. With lupus we know stress is not our friend, but this was an I'm tired after 8 hrs of sleep. I couldn't do my walks on some days. The days I did, it was a struggle and not invigorating at all. By Saturday, it clicked. I had eaten meat all week! Sunday I was good and had a little more energy as the day went on. This morning I'm feeling oh so much better!
I'm all about love, compassion, joy, and acceptance. It's a new day. Embrace it. Make it yours!
Live. Love. Laugh. Enjoy!

Thursday, April 8, 2010

Having Fun

This past weekend was a blast! I took the kids to Boston for an Anime Convention. What fun! To see all of the people of all ages in their cosplay ( they don't call them costumes). They are so brave. Let me rephrase that, they're confident and totally okay with who they are. I love it!
Went to an awesome lupus support group meeting in Greenwich. Very positive. Good feelings!
Don't ge me wrong I'm tired as hell, but it's good. I did something good and fun. The fatigue is bearable because it was so worth it. I'm up and going, just resting a lot more in between  this week.
I started my Mary Kay business again! I'm excited! It's about making others happy and getting joy out of seeing their joy. Love it!!
Well, I have a kid in my ear saying, "Can we go?" One day he'll learn is not always about him. I'll let his first real girlfriend fill him in on that one. :)