Tuesday, November 10, 2009


Lately I've been finding myself doing a lot of whining. I've been complaining about everything. It felt like nothing was going my way. Wasn't thinking positvely about anything. It's time to stop. It's more draining to complain. I have to stop fighting. Whenever I get in that mode I fight against everything.  I've been fighting with the kids, picking on my husband, and the best - fighting against lupus- for lupus- all the same I'm fighting. My kids are going to be my kids. It doesn't mean I have to accept disorderliness in my domain, they still have to respect my space, but I don't have to fight about it. My husband - it doesn't mean I have to accept disorderliness in my domain, he still has to respect my space. See a pattern:). I can express myself without the tantrums. Yes I still have them at 39 yrs old. I'm intouch with the kid in me! I can advocate for my disease without it being a fight. I can accept my disease and live a lot freer without fighting it. Everytime there's as set back I go into fight mode. I guess it's normal.  Shake it off. Move on. No whining. It's no one's fault. I think that's it. I want to blame someone and there is no one. Deep breath. Smile. Life is Good!!! I really am grateful. I have a wonderful family. I have good friends. I'm able to get around. Here's a new picture I think I'm going to frame. I took it on my deck. I'm still creative. Enjoy!


  1. Don't feel alone, I have been like that as well. This weather is crazy, & feeling bad, trying to get rest, & it is a snowball effect. If Im resting Im not getting laundry done, or claning house, or running errands. ugh I did get all my x-mas shopping done already so I guess that is a plus. lol

    Hang in there girl, we all just have to stick together, & we can get through it. You always have a fellow Lupuie like me, Ill sit & listen.

    Hope you have a great rest of your day.


  2. You my friend are fabulous!!!
    Have an awesome day!